Some about conference and about my happiness to find my partner

Today I'm working but today is a sunday and is the LDS conference at I am watching the conference at internet 'cause religions and spirituality never become something unimportant to me. Sometimes there a confusion in my mind 'cause all the time I'm working with the critical reason and the scientific thinking but inside of my mind and my heart I really never stop to keep a place to Faith and God and this reason I still like to hear the LDS menssages.

There somethings that are still wrong at my live and one of them is I still married second the law with Ana but I living with Deise who I love so much and I no that I most change this situation to step by step to stard the way to go back Church again.

I'm so happy, one thing happened with me this week that show me that I'm not alone. I took the bus when I leaving my job to return home my bus card have no  credit and the bus collector leave me go home without pay my ticket and when I arrived my home i was sad, I have no money to pay my bus ticket or take the copies to study at my college and my companion  helped me and game me money and show me with words that she at my side.

We, me and my wife at last friday start dance together different rhythms like lambada, samba and order rhythms like old north american musics and I feel me happy and I am happy when she loves me and when I our san and she are together I'm more happy.

I ever want to have a  family and I remember the time when I was single and live alone in a villege for simgles or men who stay alone from his wifes and families and always thay like to drink alcohol and do paties but I never like to stay with them, I preferred be alone at my room and there are some  paties there and women but I never felt it will make me more happy.

All sundays when I went to the Church and I saw all families together I desire to not be alone and I become sad specially when I remember that I will go back to my lone room and I dreamed have a special woman at my side and to have kids but some times I make the  wrong choices and chose the wrong woman into the time I thing is not able to find a special woman to be at my side and now I have Deise, my wife at my live and Filipe, that is not my san but at my heart he is. i never thing some unexpecdly it will happen with me.